Not Stressing is Stressful

I'm currently 34 weeks pregnant. Up until this point, my pregnancy has been pretty text book. I've been morning  all day sick, growing and gaining.

Last Monday morning around 4am, I woke up with some mild achy cramping. Knowing that I had a doctor's appointment later that morning, I decided to just try to go back to sleep and ask the doctor when I get there. Anyway, long story short, I ended up in the hospital with meds to stop contractions. At 33 weeks. It was way too early. Thankfully, I was discharged from the hospital later that afternoon with instructions to keep my feet up and to remain on bed rest. Work was notified and I would see them on Thursday if I felt up to working. Cramps started again on Wednesday afternoon and I found myself back at the doctor.

Two weeks bed rest. "Don't stress, Allyson. It will make it worse"

Oh, is that all? Don't stress. How is a girl not supposed to stress when she is all of a sudden feeling contractions about 7 weeks too early and has to abruptly leave her fast paced (& highly stressful) job? It is was easier said than done. Work stress was eased over the weekend, well, because no one was working. But its now Monday morning, the texts and the emails have already started with questions. I don't like leaving things "undone" and I really don't like leaving them on other people, namely my coworkers. We are a small organization where everyone has a lot to do. No one needs extra work. I try to help where and when I can, but everyone keeps telling me, "Rest, Ally", "Stop stressing, Ally!" But I cannot.

So I'm putting this out into the universe, how do I stop stressing? How do I stop worrying? Its almost as if its my go to feeling. Worry.

People Aren't Nice

Enough to themselves. There isn't enough positive in this world and there isn't enough self esteem. I am no stranger to being hard on myself. Everywhere I turn and everything I see provides a platform for me to compare myself to. To, once again, reiterate that "I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH." All of that needs to change. I need to be nicer to myself, you need to be nicer to yourself.

 I wanted to take this opportunity to share something that might open a few eyes. Take a look at yourself, you are more beautiful than you think. Take a look at the video below. Look early, look often friends.



Feel Good

Back at it

I felt a little sluggish and tired on this run today. I blame it on the 4 miler I did yesterday. My legs are definitely not in the regular running mode yet. Check out that pace though! Quick for this girl! 

Last year I trained for the cancelled NYC marathon and completely burned myself out. I didn't want to run anymore because I didn't have to. I missed running because I loved it. So glad it's coming back. ❤

 Next race: Orange Classic 10k on 6/2/13. 

Allyson's Road

On my road I run. 

On my road I am a wife. 

On my road I travel. 

On my road the is much DIY and prosecco. 

My road has taken me all the way to age 30. 

I'm still not sure where it's going and to say there's been ups and downs and surprises would be an understatement. If one would've asked me where id be when I was 30, I wouldn't have told you a married, home owning office manager. I lived a life of shoulds instead of just letting it be. "It" being the universe and trusting that things are happening for a reason. That the things that are happening are supposed to be happening because its what I need right now. 

This is my road.