Last Monday morning around 4am, I woke up with some mild achy cramping. Knowing that I had a doctor's appointment later that morning, I decided to just try to go back to sleep and ask the doctor when I get there. Anyway, long story short, I ended up in the hospital with meds to stop contractions. At 33 weeks. It was way too early. Thankfully, I was discharged from the hospital later that afternoon with instructions to keep my feet up and to remain on bed rest. Work was notified and I would see them on Thursday if I felt up to working. Cramps started again on Wednesday afternoon and I found myself back at the doctor.
Two weeks bed rest. "Don't stress, Allyson. It will make it worse"
Oh, is that all? Don't stress. How is a girl not supposed to stress when she is all of a sudden feeling contractions about 7 weeks too early and has to abruptly leave her fast paced (& highly stressful) job? It is was easier said than done. Work stress was eased over the weekend, well, because no one was working. But its now Monday morning, the texts and the emails have already started with questions. I don't like leaving things "undone" and I really don't like leaving them on other people, namely my coworkers. We are a small organization where everyone has a lot to do. No one needs extra work. I try to help where and when I can, but everyone keeps telling me, "Rest, Ally", "Stop stressing, Ally!" But I cannot.
So I'm putting this out into the universe, how do I stop stressing? How do I stop worrying? Its almost as if its my go to feeling. Worry.
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